Hacked By a Heckler(Crippled)

Alrighty blog world..I'm hacking my mom's blog due to failure of blogging everyday, but im not doing it alone im doing it with the help of another heckler (my dad).

Well my dad is the greatest thing in the world..He's fully supporting me getting my own first car a 1989 Ford Mustang..yeah i know it may not be stylish but hey when you were a ttenager was your 1st car stylin?? Nope, didnt think so..My Dad is like super Dad i have the coolest dad I dont care what you other people think. I'll beat you up..J/k But really I am blessed to have a dad like mine. I was just listening to some music and a country song(yes i listen to country..jesus would have too) with the lyrics "I've been watching you dad aint that cool..I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you...." And yes as any kid growing though they may not admit I watch almost 98% of what my dad does, the other 2 percent is his jokes or what he thinks are jokes but arent really, but i laugh out of love...I love my Dad..O.k enough about my dad"Next"

And now theres my mom, shes almost completely opposite of my dad, my dad likes to drive shes not a huge fan, my dad rides a dirtbike, SHES A GIRL, in other words she stays on a quad..While i watch my dad i also watch my mom too and yeah being the youngest i do tend to be spoiled sometimes but hey "IM A MOMMA'S BOY" deal with it..But the favorite thing about my mom not only is she cool but the fact that shes supportive, shes not to crazy about the fact i raced dirtbikes and im sure breaking my leg didnt make it any better but hey i did it, but the #1 thing i love about my mom, our family is nothing but baseball fans, well i play baseball.Position-Catcher, Age started 4, NUMBER OF GAMES MY MOM MISSED-ZERO!!! And idk about you guys but i think thats ultra cool...

Well enough of the hacking already, im sure my mom is wondering why i typed so long and told her not to come in the room, but its time to post this and let her in the room..thats not really the reason im getting off..if i stayed on any longer it would be a book not blog..Im getting off to go get my mustang!!!

Nice Talking to you blogworld!!

Sincerely
The Hacker
The Crippled

David Wuerfel

Prayers

So many prayers on mind tonight -

Brian - to get through the certification process, grow more in love with Jesus, his feelings of rejection, to watch his tone of voice

Jay - to grow in his love for Jesus and grow in the commitment he made at camp, school, find a job, not fight with Brian, accountability to Fred

David - healing in his leg, school, grow in his relationship with Jesus

Kara - manage her time and finances well, school, wise choices in dating

Mom - to have an amazing time with Julie, I am so blessed to have her!!

Tasha - a possible new job, school, Zeke, Sprae

Sprae - school, working, Tasha

Darius/Nicole - the new baby - thank you Jesus!

Youth Mentors - to be 110% committed, to allow the Holy Spirit to use them, for open doors with the students, to hold the students accountable

Students - power to be sold out for Jesus and live that on their campuses and in their lives

Greg/Lori - wisdom as they lead Palm Valley, to keep the focus on Jesus

Persecuted brothers and sisters - praise for the faith, courage and boldness, peace and comfort

I am so thankful the Holy Spirit can take this jumbled mess in my mind and understand and intercede with me with all of these requests, and go even deeper than my mind can fathom.

Thank you Lord!!

God is Not a Computer

Most of my day was spent with two of our IT geeks working on an automated testing program. Sounds complicated and it is. Every key stroke is recorded, sometimes things worked, other times they didn't.

So Pat and John had dig behind the scenes and find out what was different when it didn't work.

Had me thinking about God. How He knows every thing we do, every day. He knows our thoughts and our feelings. He cares about all of that!!

It doesn't matter to Him if we do things one way this time and another way the next time - He still loves us.

I am so glad that God is not a computer!!

Stand Still

I am blessed. Even with everything that has happened this summer - I am so blessed.

In my SOAP today Jehoshaphat asks the Lord for guidance. In 2 Chronicles 20:17 "But you will not even need to fight. Take your positions; then stand still and watch the Lord's victory. He is with you... Do not be afraid or discouraged. Go out against them tomorrow, for the Lord is with you!"

All God needed Jehoshaphat to do was to take his position. How simple? But how often does God ask me to take a position and I don't? There are so many areas where I miss the blessing when I try to fight the battle, rather than letting God.

Lord, help me to let You have the battles. Help me simply prepare, then be willing to stand still and watch You get the victory.

Thank you because You have already won.

They're Home

Jay and David are home! I didn't realize how much I missed having them around.

And, God did some amazing things in their lives. We are just hearing bits and pieces of what went on and how God is working. They deepened some friendships, made new friends. They learned a lot about their relationships with God (thank you Pastor Greg and Pastor Darius!). They learned how valuable they are to God.

I pray they will continue seeking after God. I also pray that Brian and I will be able to encourage them, love them and hold them accountable.

They are growing into such amazing men of God. Thank you Jesus.

The Holy Spirit

We don't talk much about the Holy Spirit. Perhaps we aren't comfortable with emotion we often equate with our Pentacostal brothers and sisters. But as I was reading today in Romans I think we might be missing something.

Romans 8:26 says "And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don't know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words."

Groaning seems deep to me, taking our needs, and maybe wants, to the throne of God and placing them before Him when we don't know what to pray for. Or maybe sometimes joining our prayers.

This is so comforting - knowing I am not alone. The Holy Spirit is interceding for me and the needs in my life.

Thank you Lord.

Daddy

My SOAP today was out of Romans, verse 15 - Now we call him, "Abba, Father". I know that means Daddy.

I feel so blessed, my father was an amazing man. I was loved, protected, held accountable.

Yet, I see people who have had horrible fathers - men who had no right to procreate.

How does one come to understand the full nature of God as Daddy when you haven't experienced Daddy love?

Day by day I am more amazed at all the blessing God has poured out on me - starting with blessing me with fantastic parents. I only pray I can be half as good as they have been.

Family

Families are strange. They can make you want to run screaming naked down the street to get away from them. Yet, they can also make you feel like the most special person in the world.

God has blessed me with amazing children - Kara, Jay and David. Then He blessed me some more with Tasha, Zeke, Sprae and Chelsea. Plus there are so many of the students that have become such a big part of my life.

This morning I woke up really early - 4:20, wide awake. So I started praying first for Jay and David, then for the rest of our students up in Colorado. God is working up there, the Holy Spirit is moving.

That is what is so cool about the church - it is a great big family. I can't wait to hear how God moved through camp!!

Faith

This morning Jay and David left for camp. Yes, David with the broken leg, went to camp. We left the decision up to him. The doctor didn't encourage it, but also didn't say no.....

So here I am relying totally on faith.

Faith God will protect David's leg, will teach him in new and different ways and will surround him with love.

Faith God will work a miracle in Jay's life, will show Jay how much he is loved, will open Jay's heart and help him have an amazing life in Jesus.

Just need to keep reminding myself - God loves these young men much more than I ever could. He has a purpose for them and wants them to glorify Jesus.

God is so good

God is so good. This morning Brian passed his physical agility test with flying colors. He went over the dreaded wall without a problem. Thank you Jesus!!

We are praying really hard the rest of the stuff happens quickly.

David is feeling stronger every day. We did buy a wheelchair today. Brian registered him for Verrado High School and the campus is BIG. So for $60 David can make it to class on time. Then perhaps I will be able to use it!!

My SOAP today was on 1 Chronicles 28:9 - "Worship and serve him with your whole heart and a willing mind. For the Lord sees every heart and knows every plan and thought. If you seek him, you will find him. But if you forsake him, he will reject you forever."

It is so amazing to think the God of the universe knows everything about me. He knows what we have been going through and is holding me close to him. Oh to seek him more and more.

The Hospital Experience

What a crazy couple of days. The surgery went well. David now has a titanium rod in his left leg along with five screws. The surgery went well, David has already started healing so the doctor had to rebreak his leg to get the rod in.

The problem arose when David couldn't pee. Couldn't eat or drink after midnight, surgery was at 12:40, 3:30am the next morning David still hasn't peed. Therefore, he got to experience a catheter. It was temporary, in other words, they simply emptied his bladder. Not to make it easy, David still couldn't pee. Dr. Doug gives him until noon. I send out a text asking people to pray for David to pee. Finally, at 11:47 - victory!!

I love it that God loves us so much He is concerned about every aspect of our life - including whether or not we can go!!

David was released this morning and is home from the hospital. Pretty tired and sore but well on the road to recovery.

Surgery

Today is the first time one of our children will have surgery. So, God has truly blessed us. That doesn't mean I got much sleep last night.....

I would take David's pain if I could. But, then I can't imagine ever getting on a dirt bike, much less trying to jump the thing. What a visual!!

God IS in control. David will come out stronger. And Brian and I will learn to trust Jesus a little bit more. Thank you Lord for these lessons YOU are teaching.

Pain

Brian's dad (Don) has prostrate cancer. The relationship between our families has been strained to put it mildly. Don was scheduled for surgery today. Brian called yesterday to find out what hospital, how he was feeling, to let him know we are praying for him.

Brian was told by his mother, he is no longer a part of the family, he is not welcome at the hospital and he has disgraced the family.

So, my kind gentle husband who loves Jesus so much is hurting. How does one deal with that kind of rejection. How does a parent turn their back on their child, especially when they claim to be a Christian?

There are very few people who have more of a servan'ts heart than Brian. He will put everyone else before himself. He has more compassion in his little finger than I have in all of my body. Yet I know God will use this to further refine Brian as he continues growing in the Lord.

Scaring satan

My Mom, who is an absolutely incredible lady sent me the following:

Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders & says... 'Oh no!!!! ...she's awake!!

Bursting Through

My SOAP today was in II Chronicles 13:10-11. David asks God if he should go to battle. God says yes. David obeys. Then he exclaims - "He used me to burst through my enemies like a raging flood!".

How cool.
1. Ask God
2. Obey God
3. Praise God and give thanks

And, God didn't just answer - David BURST through his enemies. God's not a wimp - He has some incredible power.

So I am claiming that God will burst through the enemies attacking us and He will get the glory!!

Thank you Jesus!!

The Straw that Almost Broke the Camel's Back

Well it happened today - there was a straw that almost broke the camel's back. It was a pretty intense day at work, lots to do and things were just challenging (common for this time of the month).

I made a suggestion that was shot down by my direct boss. Since the suggestion was logical and much needed I was mad. Then instead of leaving me alone to calm down, she kept pushing and pushing about how she was right.

God is so good. He kept my mouth shut!! I didn't say anything. Finally she left.

About an hour later her boss sent out an email saying this was a good idea and we should have a meeting on it Monday. It took a lot not to go say "ha ha". But again, God is good and kept my mouth shut.

What could have been the straw that broke the camel's back (or sent me over the edge) didn't. I am so amazed at how God takes care of me.

God is Carrying Me Through

My SOAP today was Psalm 7:10, God is my shield, saving those whose hearts are true and right.

I had never thought about God as a shield. But He is - He is shielding me from so many of the firey darts that satan is throwing at us. The cool thing about a shield is it can move around so that God can protect me wherever I am being attacked (even if it is from all sides!).

This verse brought me much comfort today. God is my protector. While I don't know if everything that is happening is a test or an attack or what - I do know I have a Protector who loves me so much.

All that is going on is just bringing me a step closer to Heaven. And for this leg of the journey - God is carrying me.

Thank you Jesus!

Sleep

This afternoon I was sitting in my office and just felt SO sleepy. Don't know if everything is catching up to me or what. I got up and went for a walk around the office.

I think God is pretty smart to have designed us to need sleep. A time to shut down. I am sure I haven't slept well over the last two weeks, but I do know that my body and mind needed the down time.

Hopefully this weekend we can have some really good sleep!!

Student Ministries

Tonight I spent a couple of hours making phone calls, sending emails, writing out cards to our current and potential Youth Volunteers. I am so excited.

Darius has such an amazing vision. And, the volunteers are getting it!! As I have been praying for our students, I can help but pray for revivial. It is through our young people it will start.

We pray for people to stand in the gap, to reach out and God is answering big time. I can't wait to see how He will rock our socks off.

Thankful

I am so thankful for my friends and family. This morning I received so many hugs - just what I needed.

After this past week I am not taking my friends or prayer or God for granted any more. I need all of them. Quite honestly, I am not sure how I would have made it through without the prayers of those around me.

So often we try to insulate ourselves - not let anyone see what is going on inside, not let anyone see we are hurting, not let anyone know how afraid we are. Maybe that is why God allowed all of this to happen - to show me how much I need Him and His children.

While I would have preferred Him just writing on a wall or whispering in my ear, I have to trust that He knows best. He loves me most. And, we get to spend eternity together in Heaven.

God IS in Control

The last week has been crazy - moving, murder, attempted suicide, broken bones.... If we wrote a book no one would believe it.

Brian, Jay and David are blaming the blog for all of this stuff happening. Me - I think God loves us bunches.

He is refining us - shaping us to be more like Him. Psalm 1 says "For the Lord watches over the path of the godly". So I know He is in control.

The world won't understand at all. Sometimes I don't understand. Someday, though, we will see the whole plan.

Praise God!

Broken Bones

Seconds after my last post - the phone rang. It was Jay. David had broken his leg while dirt bike riding. Both the tibula and the fibula are broken - but cleanly. The ER doctor said it probably won't need surgery - Thank you Jesus.

David is in LOTS of pain. But, Billy and Melonie were with the boys. It is cool they have Youth Leaders who hang with them - even if it happens to be at a hospital!!

Praise

My SOAP today was on Psalm 150:6 - Let everything that breathes sing praises to the Lord! Praise the Lord!

It was so cool for God to redirect my mind - Praise the Lord! When times are tough - Praise the Lord! When I am so weary I don't think I can stand it - Praise the Lord! When my children are challenging - Praise the Lord!

The past seven days have been a series of challenges - Praise the Lord! When we make it through - Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord that He considers us worthy to go through all of this.

Praise the Lord!

Suicide

Suicide. Never thought it would come so close to me.

Yesterday Jay tried to commit suicide. He took a whole bunch of pills. Never in my life have I felt such sheer terror as I did while waiting for the paramedics and police. Never have I felt like such a failure as a parent.

God is good. Jay actually vomited out everything. The hospital ran a bunch of tests - he will be fine, perhaps a little constipated for a while.... Now we need to find a counselor, someone he will be willing to talk to.

He said he didn't really want to die - he just wanted to stop hurting. How do we cope with the pain in this world.

I worry about David and his feelings through all of this.

Times like this I feel so inadequate.