Tears

Woke up in the middle of the night and reached over for Brian. Then realized, he isn't here.

It hurts. Yet, my heart holds on to the hope of reconciliation. I know God is big enough to work things through. And I know reconciliation is the desire of God's heart.

I take comfort in all of the tears I shed are being held by my Lord. He will take all of my tears and turn them into diamonds. Those diamonds will be placed on the crown He will give me at the judgement. Then, according to Scripture, I will toss the crown at His feet in honor and praise.

Without great pain there cannot be great joy. The great joy is coming - the angels will be dancing. God is good.